Jessie!

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09.12.95
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Small person with a deafening voice. Highly flammable and impossibly narcissistic. The way to my heart is through dance, photography and food. And loads of other stuff, actually.

(P.S.: I luv my awsum family, bf and my girls.)

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Beauty
Sunday, December 11, 2011 ll 10:36 PM



There was a period of time I felt really gorgeous.

Call me an arrogant bitch, like someone already has, but I'm sure everyone has had days where they felt like they could win a freaking beauty contest.

Okay, maybe not, but close enough.

I've always thought that I'd be overjoyed as long as I reached my goal weight of 42kg; I've been stuck at being 45kg for... eternity. I thought I'd feel like I was at the top of the world, like I was near perfection.

I've hit 41kg recently, yet I feel no slimmer or prettier. I feel disgusting, fat, and downright ugly a lot of the time. Of course, it could be just PMS talking...

I just wanted to say that there is NOTHING wrong with the pursuit of beauty. Everyone wants to look amazing. Everyone wants to be so perfect that no candid photo borders on unglamourous.

But the pursuit of beauty is neverending. When we achieve, we start to crave for more. It's simply human nature to chase after the better - how else would you explain addiction to plastic surgery?

It's okay if you've been going through lengths to improve your looks - or other aspects - and you feel exhausted and as if you still suck. You are not alone (*breaks into a song*)

Anyway, in all seriousness, I'm sure many of us have felt that way.

Just remember to look back and see how far you've come. Even if you're still in the same state, deemed pathetic by yourself, at least you've tried!